Thursday, February 26, 2009
Friday, January 2, 2009
the end of freedom.
so the weekend that i have been trying to avoid for the longest time is here.
it's friday, and that means i have two more days till i go back to school. and i rreally dont want to go. its like going back to hell. i dont like the people there the teachers suck, the annoying girls who just cant seem to get out of there world. its all just all FAKE. and i only have one friend who i really trust. and we known each othere since we were little but we never see each other at school cause we have diffrent classes. gosh its just absurd, i hate high school i dont see whats so special about it and i tired of people telling me "oh its going to get better" or " oh you'll meet new people" no no no nobody understands they listen but the only here what they want you to say, does that make sense?
i dont know im just typing my anger out on this thing and i really need my ;laptop to come cause its frezzing down here. i;m going to go to dinner tomorrow with the family i guess you can say im kind of excited for it but not really. actually no not really. i hate this i hate this part of my life it has been the same for the past 3 years and nobody understand how lonley it is, from having a friend in NC, who your barley talk to trying to make them understand were your coming from but there living there own life over there and you know your the last thing they think about. or to having a friend that lives 15 mins away from you that you never get to see because they have a boyfriend and thats all they want to be around i know she doenst mean it but it happens. its all a roller coster up and down all over they place. all i can say is that im just done,
i over it, all of it. im just going to do me and fight for what i want in life because at the end of the day when you think about it, your the only one 6 ft under all alone.
i'm just going to keep it real and not give a !@#%$ about what people say.
"what do you have to live for, when you can live forever?"
-twilight the movie
it's friday, and that means i have two more days till i go back to school. and i rreally dont want to go. its like going back to hell. i dont like the people there the teachers suck, the annoying girls who just cant seem to get out of there world. its all just all FAKE. and i only have one friend who i really trust. and we known each othere since we were little but we never see each other at school cause we have diffrent classes. gosh its just absurd, i hate high school i dont see whats so special about it and i tired of people telling me "oh its going to get better" or " oh you'll meet new people" no no no nobody understands they listen but the only here what they want you to say, does that make sense?
i dont know im just typing my anger out on this thing and i really need my ;laptop to come cause its frezzing down here. i;m going to go to dinner tomorrow with the family i guess you can say im kind of excited for it but not really. actually no not really. i hate this i hate this part of my life it has been the same for the past 3 years and nobody understand how lonley it is, from having a friend in NC, who your barley talk to trying to make them understand were your coming from but there living there own life over there and you know your the last thing they think about. or to having a friend that lives 15 mins away from you that you never get to see because they have a boyfriend and thats all they want to be around i know she doenst mean it but it happens. its all a roller coster up and down all over they place. all i can say is that im just done,
i over it, all of it. im just going to do me and fight for what i want in life because at the end of the day when you think about it, your the only one 6 ft under all alone.
i'm just going to keep it real and not give a !@#%$ about what people say.
"what do you have to live for, when you can live forever?"
-twilight the movie
Thursday, January 1, 2009
HAPPY NEW YEAR IT'S 2009
WOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOO!
what's up guys its finally here 2009. i spent it toasting to my mother and my dad feel alseep 2 hrs ago. HAHAH well next year i'm SO not spending it at home believe that. my RESOULTIONS START! I'M SO EXCITED I HOPE I LIVE UP TO EVERYTHING AND NEVER BACK DOWN... to what i truly want in life. i hope your fufilling your resoultions, or i'll slap you. haha just kidding.
but really i can't do this alone your going to have to help me or i'll be overly stuffed and huge at the end of '09. let's look HOT in summer '09 i'm excited are you? by the way 5 days until my birthday!!!!!! WOOOOO! nothing really excited but, i know something exciting Obama takes office in 19 days! WOOOO. YES WE CAN. lol i'll write tomorrow, wait i'll right later today haha.
HAPPPPPPPPY NEW YEAR! mhmm. i wonder what Cams doing? ;)
what's up guys its finally here 2009. i spent it toasting to my mother and my dad feel alseep 2 hrs ago. HAHAH well next year i'm SO not spending it at home believe that. my RESOULTIONS START! I'M SO EXCITED I HOPE I LIVE UP TO EVERYTHING AND NEVER BACK DOWN... to what i truly want in life. i hope your fufilling your resoultions, or i'll slap you. haha just kidding.
but really i can't do this alone your going to have to help me or i'll be overly stuffed and huge at the end of '09. let's look HOT in summer '09 i'm excited are you? by the way 5 days until my birthday!!!!!! WOOOOO! nothing really excited but, i know something exciting Obama takes office in 19 days! WOOOO. YES WE CAN. lol i'll write tomorrow, wait i'll right later today haha.
HAPPPPPPPPY NEW YEAR! mhmm. i wonder what Cams doing? ;)
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
New Year Resoultions
This is Cam Gigandet.
isn't he beautiful. a present
to you from me. :D
back again miss me? well it's been a while and everyone is gone went to parties and such and im sitting here listining to my mom eat chips and watching judge judy. my dad and his yo yo ma music in the other room. greaaat. so i wrote in my journal my new years resoultions shall i share?
why not!?!?! here they are i"ll come back to this entry and cross out the ones i fufuilled. ps cant wait till my laptop comes so i can blog in my room!
isn't he beautiful. a present
to you from me. :D
back again miss me? well it's been a while and everyone is gone went to parties and such and im sitting here listining to my mom eat chips and watching judge judy. my dad and his yo yo ma music in the other room. greaaat. so i wrote in my journal my new years resoultions shall i share?
why not!?!?! here they are i"ll come back to this entry and cross out the ones i fufuilled. ps cant wait till my laptop comes so i can blog in my room!
2009 Resoultions
- Work out a ton,be toned for the summer time.
- Make a new friend/trustworthy
- Work endlessly in volleyball
- Read the Bible a ton more
- Get a 3.5 or higher
- Make the JV team for school (volleyball)
- Be honest to people
- Think of other before myself
- Meet Jesse Mccartney
- Stop biting my Nails
- Be more active
- Make my bed when i wake up
that's all i have so far. but let's make it happen.
"Never Back Down."
-the movie never back down
Happy New Year!
So, this is my first time blogging ever. i always wanted to do it but i never had the time. so i decided to make it part of my new years resoultions.
Everyone that i knwo is all getting ready heading to a party for the new year or something but me? i'm just sitting at home watching them get ready. i wish i could spend it with some friends or something but every one already has plans. i dont know maybe next year? i hope so so i shall be spending it with my parents like i do every year fun? well kind of my mom buys delicious goodies to eat as we watch the ball drop in TV. but i think im going to go watch the movie The Woman. cause im curious about it. my birthday is next tuesday i'm excited well kind of not to much but its whatever. at the moment i'm obsessed with this guy names Cam Gigandet. ever heard of him? he plays james in twilight and he is amazing. scratch that im not obssesed with him. haha he"s just beautiful. shoot the dog were house sitting is going crazy g2g!
i'll leave with one of my favorite qoutes!
"It's either you die a hero,or live long enough to see yourself become the villian"
-The Dark Knight
Everyone that i knwo is all getting ready heading to a party for the new year or something but me? i'm just sitting at home watching them get ready. i wish i could spend it with some friends or something but every one already has plans. i dont know maybe next year? i hope so so i shall be spending it with my parents like i do every year fun? well kind of my mom buys delicious goodies to eat as we watch the ball drop in TV. but i think im going to go watch the movie The Woman. cause im curious about it. my birthday is next tuesday i'm excited well kind of not to much but its whatever. at the moment i'm obsessed with this guy names Cam Gigandet. ever heard of him? he plays james in twilight and he is amazing. scratch that im not obssesed with him. haha he"s just beautiful. shoot the dog were house sitting is going crazy g2g!
i'll leave with one of my favorite qoutes!
"It's either you die a hero,or live long enough to see yourself become the villian"
-The Dark Knight
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