the end of freedom.

so the weekend that i have been trying to avoid for the longest time is here.
it's friday, and that means i have two more days till i go back to school. and i rreally dont want to go. its like going back to hell. i dont like the people there the teachers suck, the annoying girls who just cant seem to get out of there world. its all just all FAKE. and i only have one friend who i really trust. and we known each othere since we were little but we never see each other at school cause we have diffrent classes. gosh its just absurd, i hate high school i dont see whats so special about it and i tired of people telling me "oh its going to get better" or " oh you'll meet new people" no no no nobody understands they listen but the only here what they want you to say, does that make sense?

i dont know im just typing my anger out on this thing and i really need my ;laptop to come cause its frezzing down here. i;m going to go to dinner tomorrow with the family i guess you can say im kind of excited for it but not really. actually no not really. i hate this i hate this part of my life it has been the same for the past 3 years and nobody understand how lonley it is, from having a friend in NC, who your barley talk to trying to make them understand were your coming from but there living there own life over there and you know your the last thing they think about. or to having a friend that lives 15 mins away from you that you never get to see because they have a boyfriend and thats all they want to be around i know she doenst mean it but it happens. its all a roller coster up and down all over they place. all i can say is that im just done,

i over it, all of it. im just going to do me and fight for what i want in life because at the end of the day when you think about it, your the only one 6 ft under all alone.

i'm just going to keep it real and not give a !@#%$ about what people say.

"what do you have to live for, when you can live forever?"
-twilight the movie

HAPPY NEW YEAR IT'S 2009

WOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOO!

what's up guys its finally here 2009. i spent it toasting to my mother and my dad feel alseep 2 hrs ago. HAHAH well next year i'm SO not spending it at home believe that. my RESOULTIONS START! I'M SO EXCITED I HOPE I LIVE UP TO EVERYTHING AND NEVER BACK DOWN... to what i truly want in life. i hope your fufilling your resoultions, or i'll slap you. haha just kidding.
but really i can't do this alone your going to have to help me or i'll be overly stuffed and huge at the end of '09. let's look HOT in summer '09 i'm excited are you? by the way 5 days until my birthday!!!!!! WOOOOO! nothing really excited but, i know something exciting Obama takes office in 19 days! WOOOO. YES WE CAN. lol i'll write tomorrow, wait i'll right later today haha.

HAPPPPPPPPY NEW YEAR! mhmm. i wonder what Cams doing? ;)